Dear Nikkii

It was here at this exact moment

that I knew... i knew

it wasn't all in vain

It can be so hard to convey what your heart knows

to a mind that thinks only logic

I wish I had all the answers for you

I want to make it perfect

I say this all not to scare you

but for you to truly see

what I'm saying

or trying to at least

I find you extremely complex

and I mean that in the nicest of ways

at first glance you see this beautiful face

but then you know

there is so much more behind those eyes

and for some reason it makes me sad

not because I think you're sad

but because I'll spend the rest of my life

wondering....what it was that made you so different...so special..that not even I could put my finger on it..

everyone has a story, however short, long, complex, simple, funny, sad, exciting, or boring

and there is no other way for me to say this

I just want to know yours.

I'm so afraid that this might come off as intrusive, or invasive

but I'm just speaking from what I feel

I'm not asking to be a friend

in fact I'm not really sure what I'm asking

because I've reread this 5 times and deleted it 5 times and I'm still not sure

but what I do know is

I want to be there

even if its just to listen.

- I wrote this about a month ago..I kept it up for maybe 3 days, I always wondered if you ever got the the chance to read it..