Dear Me,

You really scare me sometimes, you can get so wrapped up in your thoughts, that you sometimes lose sight of what it is you're truly after. Go slow, take your time, if its for you, then it will happen, and if its not, then move on you tried. Your heart is so massive, you expect others to feel exactly how you do, but they all won't, some will love more, others less. You just have to learn how to accept it. You tend to allow your fantasies, and your reality to combine, just remember how to balance the two. You allow your written words to sometimes do all the talking, just remember some things are better spoken. You worry about exposing yourself to others, don't worry there are some who can relate. Stop disappearing on me, I'm only here to help you, but you have to let me in. You sometimes feel your world is ending, and that no one else can understand, but believe me there are some that do. You hate how intense you are, and you wish you didn't care as much, never change that, you'll one day meet someone who will love you for it . Don't push people away that love you, yes you might get your heart broken, but I can assure you it will mend. Stop underestimating yourself you are a true gift, even if no one else in this world ever tells you. You're sometimes so afraid of growing up, and losing what it is that keeps you dreaming. You look at others, and sometimes wonder why you haven't reached your true potential, don't worry it will come, just enjoy these moments, they won't last forever. Remember summer 09, the beautiful things you saw, the feelings that you felt? Do it again, you never felt so alive.Let go of all the things that hold you back from doing and saying what you really feel, everyone won't understand you, and they might not agree, but it doesn't matter, you owe no one a excuse. Take the time and look at your reflection, I'm sure you will see something you never noticed before. It's ok to cry, there is someone out there crying with you. Stick to your beliefs, you should always stand for something. Take the time to look others in the eyes, and never forget to touch them with yours. Tell them how you feel, they might not feel the same way, but they'll never forget what you told them. Take deep breaths, and close your eyes, I'll always be here. Do you hear that? That's your heart telling you to live, and let go. I will love you forever and always..

Sincerely,

Nikki H