Maybe love is insanity....

lovers from Alan Algee on Vimeo.

When I first watched this, I was solely memorized by the beauty of the concept, but after watching this again..I realize..this is us..our story..and as much as the thought of us ending scares me..the beauty of our story..makes it all worth while. So let's enjoy each other, I'll give you as much as you can handle, and I want you to do the same, and we'll become full of each other's love.

I don't like this feeling

I never have

all I want is to hold my breath and to feel surrounded by water

I want to hear that silence

I'm annoyed by how annoyed I am right now

I hate going from a state of comfort to uncertainty

I miss having someone to just listen to me say nothing at all

I love the affect she has on me

I wonder does she know

What I like most is the fact that these are just words from her..I've yet to experience her actions in her presence..

nah she couldn't possibly know

I haven't eaten all day..

and I feel weak

but I don't feel like moving

maybe if I turn up the volume

it'll make me get up

but then i'll have to think

and I don't want to

so i'll probably just sit here

swaying my head back and forth

to the music

that's suppose to take my mind off you.

"Come through and arouse you every morning like the sun do

If you blackout and collapse I want to help you to come to

Notice I haven't yet got into what I want from you

I want you to come to when I come through

and make you shine like the sun do

I want you to be the valley for my river to run through

You're everything, you send your soul through your lips to my heart

Sweet music will start I want you to be the music of my art"...

never again.....

after its all said and done

life goes on...

why can't I be enough for you?
these arms, my hands
they are all extensions of my very being that want to hold you
I am so much more than this body
there are no smiley faces, or lol's to place behind these words
see you're never really alone
every dream. thought. wish. want. need. desire. is about you
every step I take is towards you
every word that is written is meant for you
if it's my swift entry that concerns you
then you should know, it is only because I could not wait any longer
and my departure from you does not exist
and if my mind could confess to you
it would direct you to my heart;
that stops and starts at the very thought of you
there is no definition
to explain this
no questions to ask
or answers to give
only simple or complex as we make it
take it for what it is
I want to take you to levels that you've never imagined
beautiful, gorgeous
are all words you've heard before
see I want more for you
resplendent, pulchritudinous
are just letters combined to form a glimpse of what you are
I am so much more than these words read from a screen
I am this life, that wants to be shared
I want to explore you
from the top of your head
to the bottom of your feet
every fear that you have, share it with me

and if I'm your last option

or no option at all

I'll still be here

because I'd rather have a small part of you

than nothing at all....

-I'm fully aware that with this I could lose you, and as much as that thought scares me..the thought of not telling you scares me even more. I somehow find beauty in realizing that we sometimes have no control of what we feel, or who we feel it for. I can't make you feel the same way for me, but I suppose there's beauty in that as well..

It's midnight

I'm officially 25

I decided to come outside and make a wish

star light, star bright,
first star I see tonight.
I wish I may, I wish I might,
have this wish I wish tonight.