Summer '09

as my friends make plans for the summer

i realize that none of them really appeal to me

i could go work at a summer camp

or i could get a summer job

but what i really want

is to return to summer 09

where i slept beneath the stars

camped besides lakes

relaxed in natural hot springs

breathed in nature's air

coexisted with earth

there is truly nothing like it

pitching your own tent

cooking your own food over a fire and burning your own food over fire

eating smores till you're hearts content

staying up all night laughing and listening to nature's very own ipod

meeting total strangers that become close friends for life

living life where money serves no purpose

and your only fear is a animal breaking into your tent

living life as we should

there is no comparison

i want to drop everything i'm doing

and escape

i've finally found home

Momentum

that time before impact where

you. I. we

hit. collide. combine

our

target. mission. place

It

grows. increases. expands

before our very eyes

changing life before we know it.

Do not be

fooled. blinded. numbed

to

think. accept. acknowledge

otherwise

This is our

destiny. goal. reason

for

living. breathing. existing

I'm just

happy. elated. excited

it all got to be with

you. he. she

It's 3am I can't sleep so I write:

Undocumented Love-

I didn't know I would like it so I pretended not to care. My heart was so uncharted i opted not to share, my feelings yet I needed some type of healing from you. Open thoughts open mind open body. I am all yours for tonight but what am I doing this can't be right. So I fight between distance and yearning my mind constantly churning my wants into needs. Crossing over seas to feed my hunger. Once I get a taste I'll be stronger and move on. For my heart is just a clone of my mind unable to seperate time into minutes words into sentences. I crawl into a hole fighting for my soul trying to control the madness which consumes the sadness in my eyes, the lies broken the truth spoken. I'm just a token for this. Unadultered bliss we kiss yet I miss the innocence in it all. We fall heavily steadily to the ground. These feelings that we found must never be opened or broken. Our secrect we must keep it. Unless defeated. Our undocumented love.

i.think.you're.hottt.

you make my heart pitter patter

(bette)what are you afraid of tina: i'm afaid of how everyone will judge us, what others will think of us

(tina) what is it you're afraid of bette: i'm afraid that i'm destructive, that if i have something good, i feel compelled to destroy it.

untitled

i've always wondered

what my talent/or gift was

i was told that everyone had one

i enjoyed drawing

but it didn't come

to me, as it came to others

i enjoyed photography

but i always felt i missed the bigger picture

i enjoyed talking

but i could never find the right words to say

i enjoyed dancing

but often felt unmoved

i loved writing

it was as though love and lust were one

we were in a relationship, i hated her she loved me

i wasn't enough she was everything i needed

she'd keep me up all night

she thought she knew me

i didn't know her at all

we separated

i had found someone new

she felt betrayed

i felt releaved

no longer tied

or weighed down

i spent countless days

searching for someone to fill her place

empty

alone

desperate

i came

crawling back

she loved me

she'd never leave

together

eternity.

My head is full of

locked words

i can't use,

my mind

is waiting

on life's

experiences

to unlock

them.

Beauty is her name....